Fear

I laughed for a moment. Almost thankful that finally he got it. That this was not a healthy existence, but when I replayed his words he hadn't been listening to me at all. Instead we were right back in the verbally abusive circle. "I don't want to be apart of your miserable life. Keep your unhappiness to yourself. No one cares."
He continued to scream at me, but I no longer was listening. I was emotionless and dead inside. At that moment what little hope I had left to cling onto had disappeared. Who was playing who now?
Subconsciously I knew this was how it would end. But, even when it seemed like the writing was on the wall I still wanted to believe everything would turn out okay.
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