Monster's Ball

No words ever have to be spoken. You just know from the simplest of actions exactly who the real monsters are. They might pretend to be rockstars in the making or happy go lucky soccer moms, but it's all just an act that the majority of people will buy.
If you let the monsters out of the closet you will finally "get it." The monster is afraid of you, but has managed to create this ridicilously amazing and mysterious persona that for a long time made you believe you were in the presence of greatness.
This has always been true, as the real star of the show has always been you and not some rockstar wannabe who years later you figured out was never going to amount to anything and who had no modivation to challenge themselves or grow. Money talks and at the end of the day there are a bunch of mouths to fit. It's just a shame to waste talent, because you started a family.
That's the difference between us. My words may come out of left field from time to time, but I will always back up my actions. If I say I'm going to do accomplish something I will. I would never let anyone become the co-pilot of my solo mission. It just sucks that it took me all this time to finally see thru the layers of bullshit.
Well the ball is over. The glass slipper has been retrieved. The promises of false hope forgiven and gradually forgotten. Nonetheless I still wish you the best. You never were going to leave were you? It was just a game to you? To see how far the illusion could take you.
Kate

The Chronicles of Narnia

All the twists and turns will never prepare you for the final curtain call. You may have been expecting the blackout for some time, but how and why will leave you speechless. Moving forward seems impossible, but the clock keeps ticking and the days eventually start adding up. Time passing mentally slows and the only thing that brings you happiness is dreaming of a life in Narnia.
If you click your heels three times no fairy godmother or Prince William will magically appear. If you don't like your life at least attempt to change it, but NEVER ever pack your bags and move away for a man or because of one. It only shows your weakness. Sure it's dramatic and proves a point, but it doesn't really change anything. If you, yourself have not changed then you will continue to repeat the same poor choices and enter into similar bad relationships.
The only way to win isn't to seek revenge it's to never vanish, but rather to remain a constant reminder of a life once lived. If you disappear you will quickly be forgotten. But, if you continue to surface, no matter how hard the person who did you wrong tries they will NEVER be able to forget you. Which is the sweetest ending to a bitter lullaby.
Kate

You've Got Mail

“It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance. It is the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance. It is the one who won't be taken who cannot seem to give. And the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live.” - Bette Midler

When we put our trust in the hands of others we become a hollow, wooden puppet hoping that the next move is the show stopper. While advice from the peanut gallery is a good way of getting different views on a situation it shouldn't be the final decision maker.
If you follow your heart and keep your expectations low, you maybe pleasantly surprised where it takes you. Dead relationships may never get a fresh start, but hopefully as the days go by you can once again be civil with one another and dare I say even friendly. In some cases a little time and distance apart may recharge a once flourishing love.
But, no matter how much time passes not all can be forgotten. The true test is if you can survive the next storm. Even though it's easy to get caught up in the obsession and chase with little regard to past mistakes or future hiccups hopefully you will have learned a lesson or two since then.
Life isn't perfect. It rarely goes according to plan. But, if you roll with the punches you will come out wiser and stronger.
Kate

Butterfly Avalanche

If we knew why we wouldn't be here. If we could pinpoint to the very second the avalanche started we wouldn't have questioned or judged. If we believed in the magic eight ball's depressing answer to all life's questions we would have stopped putting our faith in a cardboard box.
For whatever reason we still believe in miracles. In random chance encounters, in love at first sight, in happily ever after and prince charming. But, we know now that it would be naive to change our course simply because of a butterfly feeling.
All that ends well rarely starts out pain free. All the little monsters in the closet will remain under lock and key unless we sell our souls to the devil.
There will come a time when peace and harmony sleep side by side again. For now we shall enjoy the few moments of serenity. Well aware that anyday now the storm may return for a rematch.
Kate

It's Not Working

Break ups are never easy. Especially when there are strong feelings involved. As you may guess it did not work out for me. I guess his fears were stronger than his feelings for me. We are different people. There is no denying that. For starters he is Italian. I am Australian. We had different upbringings,different cultures. He is a scuba diving instructor and I am an accountant. He has said on occasions that we are from different planets and he can't see how we could be a match. I, on the other hand look at it from another perspective. Different is good. Different gives you so much to learn about each other. About life. As I have mentioned he has inspired me to do things. Learn another language. Travel overseas. See the world. To love myself. I look at things differently. I appreciate things in a different way. He has made an incredible impact on my life without knowing. I was always too busy. Never took the opportunity to do simple things like a walk on the beach at sunset. Sit and watch the waves and listen to the ocean for a couple of hours. Watch the moon rise. Listen to the birds.
I am not bitter in any way about this. As The Man has said on numerous occasions. If a guy wants to be with you he will do everything in his power to be with you. In this case I guess it just wasn't meant to be. If it was it would be easy. There shouldn't be an inner struggle between feelings and fear. This should be the 'Honeymoon' period. And because of how strong my feelings are for him I don't want to see him struggle with himself. So I have to let him go and release him from that. No matter how much it hurts me.
Aussie Gal

Blink

What becomes of the broken hearted? In a way we are all ghosts searching for Casper in an abandoned castle that once housed love. The people closest to us will one day leave with nothing but the clothes on their back. For a long time you will seek answers even though you know you can't go back and change the course of events. The ghosts will stay with you long after the lights are turned on. Everyday will be a constant reminder of what could have and should have been.
The fate of others unknowingly lies in the hands of strangers. Which isn't always a good thing. Foolishly we allow ourselves to believe that this time will be different. That finally it is our time to shine, but with the blink of an eye we are rudely awakened to the sad reality that not every story has a happy ending. In the event that the yellow brick road stops short and leads you to a never ending hamster ride at Willy Wonka's factory start spiking the water fountain.
Kate

Rubber Heart

So I may have stuffed up big time. I want to protect myself. Protect myself from being hurt again. But maybe I am being too over protective. I think it has worked against me.
I have been seeing an amazing guy for about four months now. We started slow and over time we became more attached. And it has been great.He is completely different to any other guy I have met. We have feelings for each other. There is no denying that. Just ask the people who see us together. Lol.
But my problem is that I have been holding back my thoughts, my feelings and I guess in a way who I am because I am afraid of letting it all out there only to be hurt again. I have been there before. And had my heart torn to pieces. And I am shit scared about letting that happen again. The last one not only broke my heart but also the hearts of my family and friends. I have to protect them as well.
I am falling for this guy. I do know the last thing he would ever want to do is hurt me. He has the sweetest heart and soul. And he has opened my eyes up to many things. He has inspired me to do certain things in my life. Maybe I need to trust him with my heart and to be more open with him and I am willing to do that…
Aussie Gal

Left of Center

I've been gone for awhile from the blog and enjoying life without having to worry about what semi personal detail I should expose. Much like learning to ride a bicycle I have gradually gained a new found confidence in myself and no longer need the training wheels. I've hit a few pot holes, fell down a bunch of times, but I keep getting back up and going out everyday with a fresh outlook on life.
I've missed a few birthdays and milestones, but the interest in our fragile existence surprisingly continues to multiple. I must admit I do enjoy being able to keep my private life, private, but I also miss feeling like I am part of something profound. Maybe one day I will write again on here, but for the time being I'm enjoying my seemingly normal life.
Where ever your travels take you I wish you the best and I hope that this one is "the one." But, if not there is always happiness left of center. Congratulations to all that have found love or at least a warm body to lay next to and most importantly congratulations to those who have not let their past mistakes define their existence.
Summer

Survivor

There maybe many more fish in the sea, but if you never fully allow yourself to be open to the idea of love and happiness than you will never find what you are seeking. At a certain point you must let go of your rules and checklists and stop taking the advice of others. Follow your heart. If you feel questions were left unanswered. Ask for an answer. If you like someone, tell them. Speak out of turn. Say what is on your mind. Don't create a world that is impossible to live in. What you hear may not be what you were wishing for, but hopefully it will give you some peace of mind.
We are edging closer to 43,000 Love Bites groupies. Pretty freakin' amazing especially considering that only one year ago there were just a handful of supporters of our wild and crazy experiment.
The price is far grander as are the stakes. Good thing we like to take risks and gamble away the fate of others. Let the real fun begin!
Kate

Survivor - Destiny's Child
(rather fitting at the moment. Don't you think?)

"Now that you are out of my life,
I'm so much better,
You thought that I'd be weak without ya,
But I'm stronger,
You thought that I'd be broke without ya,
But I'm richer,
You thought that I'd be sad without ya,
I laugh harder,
You thought I wouldn't grow without ya,
Now I'm wiser,
You thought that I'd be helpless without ya,
But I'm smarter,
You thought that I'd be stressed without ya,
But I'm chillin'
You thought I wouldn't sell without ya,
Sold nine million.

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what).

Thought I couldn't breathe without you,
I'm inhalin'
You thought I couldn't see without you,
Perfect vision,
You thought I couldn't last without ya,
But I'm lastin'
You thought that I would die without ya,
But I'm livin'
Thought that I would fail without ya,
But I'm on top,
Though it would be over by now,
But it won't stop,
You thought that I would self-destruct,
But I'm still here,
Even in my years to come,
I'm still gon' be here.

I'm wishin' you the best,
Pray that you are blessed,
Much success, no stress, and lots of happiness,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna blast you on the radio,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna lie on you or your family, yo,
(I'm better than that)
I'm not gonna hate you in the magazine...
(I'm better than that)

I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm not gonna give up (what),
I'm not gon' stop (what),
I'm gonna work harder (what),
I'm a survivor (what),
I'm gonna make it (what),
I will survive (what),
Keep on survivin' (what)

After all of the darkness and sadness,
Still comes happiness,
If I surround myself with positive things,
I'll gain prosperity."

Almost Married

I see there have been some talks about two people finding each other..Well, I guess I should step forward and tell you, IT'S ME!!! Let me first say, in order to truly understand why this has such big meaning, you need to read the earlier blogs. I have been "searching" for many years to find the one "perfect for me". I am the type that it either works, or it dosn't...I know exactly what I wanted, but never knew it actually exists! So many of us look and look, go on endless dates and end up just settling for what works. Let me say...I am a picky SOB and it takes something very special to catch my eye..She has not only caught my eye, she is a gift I always wanted, but never thought I would receive.
There are so many factors that go into determining whether or not the person you’re with is the person you’re meant to spend the rest of your life with. It’s not a decision that should be taken lightly, or that should be done without a considerable about of thought and internal preparation. I have learned through many experiences that we attract exactly what we are looking for at that time. If you're looking for "fun" that's all it will ever be. If you're looking for "sex", then sex will come to you as well...You can't change who you attract! We attract mirror images of ourselves, and history will repeat itself, until you find the power to change. Ever heard the saying "can't turn a hooker into a housewife"? well, most of us would love to have a experienced pornstar type woman who is a virgin, but com'on!! that will never happen! Everyone has a past, and many of us need to experience these things before our "gift" comes to us as well. You need to accept things as they are, never settle for something/someone who isn't your equal, and he/she will arrive
when you least expect it. As soon as we met, everything in my life lined up! I KNOW this is a higher power that has drawn us together. Many will think im full of shit, but when you have this internal feeling, you will know they are "the one". It can be mistaken sometimes, but you will just know. Words can not explain the feeling that runs throughout your body.
Here's where things get crazy: As we travel through life we always have a mental picture of what our future will look like. We look out five, ten, fifteen and sometimes even twenty or thirty years into our future and contemplate what our little worlds will look like. When I was single, I’d look out in to my future and see myself single throughout my mid-twenties, married and enjoying life in my late twenties and early 30′s, a parent in my 30′s and a grandparent somewhere in my 60′s. In all that projecting, the person I projected by my side was always some beautiful phantom of a woman whose face I could never quite discern because I had yet to meet her. That all changed the moment we spoke! When I imagined my future life, the face of the beautiful woman standing next to me in both my immediate and long term future was clear. It was her!!!, and there was nothing I could do to shake that. My dreams have now become a reality and I am on the
journey of forever.
So, how do you know when someone is the one? I guess it’s different for everyone.. for me, I just knew. She is just an amazing woman, everything I always wished for. Knowing all the shit I had to go through to find her, I would have done it a million times if my reward were the same.
The Man

Gypsy Kingdom

So many times we put our fate in the hands of a drunken fortune teller. We hold our breath for a pipe dream that expired before it was conceived. We forget the mistakes of our past because we want to believe this time will be different. But, it never is. Maybe in the end what we come to understand is nothing more than what we originally believed.
The carousel continues to spin long after the ride ended. The candy coated shell sits idle contemplating how to safety eject with the silly notion that we can cheat death and free fall to paradise.
The vision of home sweet home is what keeps us moving forward. What keeps us alive inside even when the wounds of the battle appear to have gotten the best of us.
Love Bites is celebrating it's first birthday today. It's been a surreal year and the real adventure is just beginning. We hope you stay along for the ride and bring along your super fabulous friends too.
Cheers y'all! Especially to my fellow partners in crime. Thanks for the inspiration, support and love. xoxo
With Love,
Kate

RIP Donny K

On Sunday morning I woke to some bad news… One of my old bosses of nine and a half years had passed away. Some people have facebooked their thoughts but this is my venue. He was not only my boss but a good friend. Completely unexpected. He went to sleep on Friday night and did not wake up. We were meant to catch up last weekend but I postponed it for other reasons. Now I feel bad. I missed my chance. We were then meant to see each other next weekend but….. But I look at the silver lining that as he wasn’t catching up with me he took the time to see his brother who he said he hadn’t seen in years. It’s more important that his brother got the chance to see him than me. He was a month away from his 60th. Still too young. Especially considering he ran on the beach every morning and marathons. I don’t want this blog to be depressing but more of a reality check. You never know when your time is up. And in some cases you aren’t given the opportunity to say goodbye. When I got the news I made sure I spoke to my sister and called my parents just to tell them that I loved them. I am organizing nights to see good friends who I haven’t seen since I left JSR.
Don’t let opportunities pass you by because you are scared of what might happen. Scared of what might not happen. Scared of differences. Life is full of risks... I guess that is what life is all about. What if that one thing you turned away from could have been the best thing for you? Do you want to spend the rest of your life wondering or regretting it? As we all know on here Love & Life hurts us at one point or another. But it’s the fact that we pick ourselves up and continue on that journey. And we may get knocked down many times but eventually we will find happiness. We just have to be open to it….
RIP Donny K….
Aussie Gal

The Met

There will come a day when you look around and home is no longer a meditative place to rest or relax. The four walls that once enclosed love, hope and laughter have now been picked bone dry and are bleeding with hate and anger. This dance could continue for as long as you live or it can end with one final blow to the heart.
Every word and action is chopped and spit out with opera like emotion and a killer cold reaction. Will you ever love again? Will you ever trust again? Will you ever be free?
You start to wonder if any of your memories from happier times were ever real because to effortlessly walk away and forget love well means it never was love to begin with. Say what you want, but it's a bit of a one sided argument when everything not perfect about the other is looked over and everything else is criticized and bashed. It may have hurt at one point, but now it's just ammunition for my jet setting heart to pack up and move as far as away from this fucked up, bull shit existence presently called life.
Kate