Love, What Is It Good For?

"When love is not madness, it is not love." ~Pedro Calderon de la Barca

There is a reason why relationships fall apart and new ones are formed. Even in the worse of times there is a lesson to be learned. In some cases it takes many mistakes to see the light. But, even if you think you understand why you feel a certain or act out of character there will be a moment later on down the road where you once again start to question yourself and others for what happened many moons ago.
You may think the ex-files are securely locked and no matter how many times you try and play devil's advocate with yourself the same questions that were looming before still remain.
It's been said that once you stop caring and stop paying attention that a former great love will seek you out. Be cautious of their motives and ask yourself why you care.
In some cases you wonder what you ever saw in the ex to begin with. If you think this way then it never was love, just an expulsive purchase that you later returned.
Traits that you once thought were funny and cute are now annoying and humorous for very different reasons. A part of moving on from the person you once were and the people you once called friends and lovers is understanding your mistakes and accepting others for being cowardly, spineless, jackasses.
Not knowing the truth in some ways makes letting go of the past easier. But when the ghosts continues to attach themselves to your new life one starts to wonder just how juicy a story the missing chapter was.
I still hold out hope that one day I will get the answer to the question left unanswered. But, for now I'm thankful I never have.
Kate