"You’re going to catch a cold from the ice inside your soul. Who do you think you are?"
- Christina Perri
Everyone has a way of picking sides, whether they realize it or not. Making decisions based on rumor and fiction. The truth to them is non negotiable. Which catches you by surprise because obviously if they listened to everything said and saw all there was to see without preconceptions they too would be apologizing. Instead your life gets turned upside down and you become the victim of verbal abuse and repeatedly told that you are the one with problems. There is only so much one can take before they start to crack and melt inside.
The cycle of blame continues and eventually you learn to just stay quiet and not participate in the destruction. You learn the only way to stay sane in the midst of insanity is to find an outlet for your pain. Which usually causes more sticks and stones to pile up.
You start to replay the still moments of your past together to find a clue. Mixed in are the happy memories, when you really were in love. However, what sticks out is the addiction and years of standing by and defending a person who it turns out would leave you standing in the rain for the next quick fix.
Kate
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