P.S. I Love You

Going to try something new this month as SP and McD are on the outs and The Man isn't dating. So until further notice I will be the primary writer. I'm sure from time to time the rest of the Love Bites crew will return, but for now it's a one woman show.
Looking back over the last couple months I can see how SP and myself have strikingly similar thoughts. Life these days is a parallel of one another in so many ways and yet completely different in others.
The truth doesn't always set you free. I should have known what was going to happen down the line, but instead I continued to verbally and emotionally punch the one person who unconditionally loved me because I thought there was a better opportunity within reach. I was a fool and now I'm alone. I got my cheap rush and in return lost everything we had built together. In less than forty-eight hours he was gone. But, the ghost and my actions would haunt me forever.
I might never see him again, but I still hold out hope that one day he will return. I know now that he will be coaching me on for as long as I need him to. But, I don't want to move on without him, I want it to be like the old days when I was happy to just be.
"You must be strong. You can do this. I will be here every step of the way. You are the love of my life. I will love you forever. Bye Beautiful." He was gone before I returned. I never appreciated what I had sitting right next to me until all that remained was a ring and a note.
It would take months to adjust to the new reality and familiar surroundings. What had I done? What if we never saw each other again? What if this was it?
Kate