Nutcracker

"Absence diminishes little passions and increases great ones, as wind extinguishes candles and fans a fire."- Francois de La Rochefoucauld

It's been awhile seen we last met, but we have found a way to make our attractive and interest in one another grow. Thou short at times our conversations are constantly on going. Emotions are heighten with each key stroke and subject matter that in a typical relationship most likely wouldn't be discussed until further down the line has been both casually and at times seriously spoken about.
Our goals in life and beliefs are equal and in a short period I have come to rely on him for support and comfort. He accepts me for whom I am and doesn't pass judgment on me for past mistakes or carelessly dismiss my alternative view on love and marriage.
At first glance he is a soft spoken, highly motivated and intelligent man, but once he lets his guard down he is the sweetest, most affectionate, romantic, which most women only dream about finding. Is this my reward for years of dealing with bullshit from a man who turned out to be a JSR? Whom I was lucky enough to get a birthday card from and that even took a reminder.
Since having my heart not only stomped on but also shattered into a million little pieces I will never and can never again completely expose my feelings. I will never be a happy go lucky romantic. Romance is dead. In the end everyone will get their heart broken, some more than once. The dark knight won't gallop in on a horse or rescue you from an unhappy life. But, if you find yourself one of a few good men it's hard not to crack the nut.
I feel fortunate these days to be the current desire of McDreamy's affection. I can only hope that time makes the heart grow fonder. It's going to a long winter with no palm trees in sight.
SP