Misunderstood Forgiveness

"Forgiveness really is so misunderstood, as well as the power it can release in an individual." - Jennifer O'Neill

Can someone please smack me? I should know better than this. Why did I ruin something that had barely blossomed? Maybe I wasn't ready or was too afraid to trust someone at face value. Have I really been that traumatized that I didn't even realize that my words and actions were pushing away the one person who had made me feel whole again?
Mr. Darcy (aka McDreamy) and I chatted for a while today and I can't blame him for being mad at me, for now rethinking his feelings towards me. It's my fault if he walks away now and there isn't anything I can do to change this. What is done is done.

"Don't take this the wrong way...I am still very much interested in you...but the bashing on the blog I don't think is right.... we have a six hour time difference and I've been preoccupied with work and business dinners." - Mr. Darcy

"If I've freaked you out or pissed you off I apology. It was poor judgment all around on my part. I will just say this, I never expected for really anything to happen so I went in with low expectations (I don't mean this in a bad way just so I wouldn't be disappointed) instead I was blown away and as corny as it sounds swept away by basically everything not only said but gestures. So there I think I've said too much. I would like to see you again if you can forget the last few days." - Ms.Jones

Sweet dreams,
SP