Let's Try This Again

“Somewhere there is someone that dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile, so when you are lonely remember it’s true, someone somewhere is thinking of you.”

Maybe he was right and there was nothing to worry about. He simply was very busy and it wasn't that he lost interest in me, but just that he was tired after a twelve-hour workday and thought that I understood. "Nothing has changed. I still feel the same way about you that I did last week. If it was just about sex, I could get find it here if I wanted. I thought I had put all the cards on the table and showed you that I was serious. Why do you think I had been pushing to see you?" Hearing McDreamy say this was a relief in a way, on the other hand I fear I might have rained on the honeymoon. Think we should change his nickname to Mark Darcy like from Bridget Jones Diary. Which would make me the fabulous Ms. Jones, writing in a diary, drinking, smoking, and running in the rain in my underwear. Well not the last one, but it is rather ironic that I am writing in a dairy and that my ex is very much like Hugh Grant's character, Daniel Cleaver and the whole awkward naked moment with the mistress. I just hope Mr. Darcy (aka McDreamy and Devils Advocate) doesn't wear hideous holiday theme sweaters.
Have I unknowingly given Mr. Darcy a test to see how he reacts when thrown a curveball? If he isn't scared off by now, then he must be seriously interested in pursuing me and also completely crazy because of this.
Maybe it wasn't best to open the floodgates and over expose and embellish on what is still a very new and budding flirtation. Let's try this again. It's nice to meet you Mark my name is Summer. "I'm complicated, sentimental, lovable, honest, loyal, decent, generous, likable, and lonely. My personality is not split; it's shredded." - Jack Paar
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