Days of Our Lives

“Some of the biggest challenges in relationships come from the fact that most people enter a relationship in order to get something. They're trying to find someone who's going to make them feel good. In reality, the only way a relationship will last is if you see your relationship as a place that you go to give, and not a place that you go to take.“- Anthony Robbins

Nothing is, as it seems you must remember this. My post last night, "Eyes Wide Shut" wasn't meant to be taken negatively, but this morning I woke to an angry email from Mark (this is McDreamy/Devils Advocate. The sweetest, sexiest, most patient and gorgeous stud muffin. LOL) What had I said that caused the backlash? I thought we had an open agreement when it came to the blog and accepted the words written without over thinking and analyzing.
I too sometimes get caught up in the language and become insecure when I read about past love interests of Mark. The old me would have been jealous and perhaps intimidated, but I can't be bothered with the should of, could of, would of.
Just like anyone I have bad days and good days. I alternate between dark thoughts and moments of sublime happiness. There is a man waiting for me somewhere in the universe, maybe it's Mark or maybe in time he will grow tired of my physiological games. He has never done anything to me to warrant my negative words or harsh criticism and I apology for dragging you into my oh so complicated life. If this was a test you have aced it, but it never was meant to be. What I question now isn't Mark's interest in me, but rather why does someone seemingly so perfect want me?
SP