Coupledom

I am walking a fine line these days. Holding on to a past that will not let go and worrying if I've missed the mark and jumped to soon. I don't fear change, how could I? Change is after all how I got to this new serendipitous place. The new question is where do I go from here?
In the last week there has been a dramatic change to the tone of our blogs. We are once again in control of our destiny. Which in itself is a fabulous blessing. I'm still in disbelief that it was only a few months ago that I felt like I was lost in a street alley.
Yet another blog has been created, http://sublimehappinessofaguardedheart.blogspot.com. Finally it feels like everything is starting to come together. Hundreds of papers and years of emotion and betrayal turns out are incredibly hard to edit away. As if each erasing of a word is a stab in the heart.
I find myself in unknown territory these days. Nothing new there, it seems to be a theme of the blog this month too. I question life choices and surroundings, wondering if I made the right choices thru the years.
I am not one who traditionally enjoys company. I prefer to be left alone and yet I have continued to seek a life partner. Do I too fear growing old alone? Time and time again I have set myself up for failure in love, by attempting to conform to societies expectations.
Once again, I find myself questioning definitions and my heart. Here's a funny yet incredibly fascinating description of the word couple.

Definitions of couple on the Web:

A pair who associate with one another; "The engaged couple"; "An inseparable two some"
Match: Bring two objects, ideas, or people together; "This fact is coupled to the other one"; "Matchmaker, can you match my daughter with a nice young man?” "The student was paired with a partner for collaboration on the project" A pair of people who live together; "A married couple from Chicago"
Link together; "Can we couple these proposals?"
A small indefinite number; "He's coming for a couple of days"
Pair: Form a pair or pairs; "The two old friends paired off"
Two items of the same kind
Copulate: Engage in sexual intercourse; "Birds mate in the spring"

Choose which one tickles your fancy.
Night y'all.
Kate